Now I know

It's my fault.

That I can't make you stay

I'm sure I'm hated.

But where's your heart?

Death, despair, Destruction.

But where's your heart?

I hate my self.

But where's your...

I hate my power.


And I know

Charred Remains.

There's nothing I can say

Blaming me for their demise

To change that part

I threw up again

To change that part

Nauseous and tired I fell to the pillow.

To change...

A nurse stopped by, and began cleaning, muttering all the while.


So many

My dreams were the same haunting faces

Bright lights, that cast a shadow

Screaming and sirens, Charred Corpses

But can I speak?

Fingers of Blame.

Well is it hard understanding

Pointed at me

I'm incomplete

I had nothing to tell them

A life that's so demanding

No excuse for my actions

I get so weak

I felt so small,

A love that's so demanding

I felt like shit.

I can't speak

Like trash, sitting in a gutter.


I am not afraid to keep on living

Unaware, outside of my world

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Another touched me, touched my world of dreams

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

For a split second, I saw her face

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

And then my dreams settled.


Can you see

what can I See?

My eyes are shining bright

The fire in the distance?

'Cause I'm out here

Her face? her world?

On the other side

My life? my soul?

Of a jet black hotel mirror

A lake of water, Pitch black.

And I'm so weak

On a moonless night

Is it hard understanding

My reflection on the surface

I'm incomplete

with no smile

A love that's so demanding

A happy face far away

I get weak

I cry, Tears hit the sand

I am not afraid to keep on living

"Move on" A mysterious, feminine voice urges.

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

"who? where? what do you know?"

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

"Move on, there's nothing you can do"

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

"But..." I had no excuse

I am not afraid to keep on living

No solid objection.

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

I'm not alone, but then...

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

there's no-one here with me

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Is there?

These bright lights have always blind..ed me

I looked once more to the water.

These bright lights are always blind..ed me

There she was

I say

when?


I see you lying next to me

"Always, yet only now" she responded

With words I thought I'd never speak

"Are we the same?"

Awake and unafraid

"And yet different" she replied

Asleep or dead

"Am I dead?"

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me

"If you are, then I've lost someone"

(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak

"Lost?" It struck me

(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid

"We'll meet again when we're awake,

(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

and we'll go from there"

'Cause I see you lying next to me

In my dreams she kissed me


With words I thought I'd never speak

I knew where to go, I knew the next step.

Awake and unafraid

In 7 stages I would wake.

Asleep or dead

and hold the key in my hands.


'Cause I see you lying next to me

The Bright lights welcomed me to consciousness.

With words I thought I'd never speak

A Quiet hum, a constant beep

Awake and unafraid

and Quiet chatter, a new song.

Asleep or dead

In my mind, a peaceful melody playing.


I am not afraid to keep on living

Cause I know

I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
'cause I can

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

Even though I had taken so much.

Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)

I have much to give.

I am not afraid to keep on living

and I can walk on, because there are others

I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)

Others like me, considered monsters.

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

She stepped into my room in the hospital,

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Wearing a hospital gown, and I swear there's never been a prettier sight than that

Cause I see her, I see myself. one and the same